I've given it a lot of thought and ultimately decided that I don't want to share much of my daughter online. I mean, I'm blowing up Instagram, but I have a private account and feel slightly more secure about that. I don't plan on blogging about her a lot.
As soon as she was born, I became very protective of her, and was immediately aware of how curious people become once you start a family. I want to be more mindful about what I choose to share online, especially regarding my family - Maylin, specifically. I feel like once you become a parent, you see the world differently. It's such an awesome place, with so many great things to offer, but at the same time, it's is terrible. And I want to protect her from that for as long as I can.
That being said, I've been on maternity leave for the past five and a half weeks and Maylin has literally been my life, so I haven't had much else going on to blog about! She is such a great baby - we really lucked out. She is almost six weeks old, has been sleeping through the night (with very few exceptions) since day one, and we are all completely obsessed with her. She is the sweetest, most calm baby, and she has been smiling for about three weeks. There is seriously nothing better in the entire world than that little girl's smile. I've become the biggest mom cliche out there! But seriously, parenthood is the best. I'll be going back to work soon, but Devin and I have worked out a great schedule, so it's easy for me to be excited about working again! I have missed my job and co-workers, so I am really looking forward to getting back.
Maternity leave is the best and the weirdest. I really struggled with it at first. It felt so wrong to just stay at home and hang out with my baby all day. I felt guilty, like I should be doing more. I definitely had some bad Postpartum Anxiety, but it steadily got better and better as time went on, and I've been feeling so good! I feel like everyone told us that having a baby would turn our world upside down and nothing would ever be the same, and it would be tireless work, and I would be exhausted and I wouldn't ever have another minute to myself for the rest of my life. And I'll admit, there are moments where it does feel that way! But maybe we just got lucky, because Maylin is so great. I remember when Devin and I got married, I expected it to be this giant, life-altering change. And I waited for it to happen, and it never did. We just very subtly and naturally slipped into our roles as husband and wife and it became the norm without us even noticing. And the exact same thing has happened with parenthood.
So, once I am out of the maternity leave bubble/alternate universe, and I get into a real life routine, I will resume blogging. Kind of. But until then, I'm going to soak up all of the smiles and day-long-snug-sessions and wearing-the-same-clothes-for-three-days-and-getting-away-with-it that I can!
